3.19am 23rd october,

quite late oledi, or said quite early in the morning,

just back from watching Formula 1 in sao paulo,Brazil.

 

The 2006 F1 season ended,

with the final outcome, Michael Schumacher get 2nd place,

he cannot get the 8th world champion title,

and ended up retired, he's no longer taking part in any motorsport racing,

quite sad huh, im his super fans!

 

The brazillian Grand Prix just now was exciting.

schumi's really 車神, not bull-shitting.

had some accident with Giancarllo Fisichella at the start of race,

tyre punctured, dropped to the last grid,

still manage to get the 4th place end of the Grand Prix,

really feel proud of him.

His overtaking skill really great, had a great time just now.

 

let's hope he will has his great life after retiring from motor racing huh!

good luck schumi!!

我傻傻地待了46分34秒...

從耳機的旋律, 再一次被蘇打綠的音樂感動了.

你也不仿戴上耳機, 像我那樣般, 放下手頭上所有事情,

讓音樂感動一下自己吧!

 

天空今天沒有很藍, 而且還有很多煙霧.

但是有蘇打綠的音樂, 從耳機傳來了心情的平靜.

秋意漸濃, 傳來陣陣溫暖的感覺.

令我聯想起盛開在這個季節的曼珠沙華.

 

曼珠沙華, 又名彼岸花, 天國之花, 那麼美麗又憂傷的名字.

曼珠沙華, 終其一身,花與葉永無緣相見.

秋天降臨的時候, 總是待葉落盡, 紅花才盛放.

花不見葉, 葉不見花, 花葉兩不相見, 生生相錯.

雖是同根生, 但兩者從不相遇, 也只能彼此祝福著對方而已.

 

我們...

總是沒有那個相遇的緣分.

縱然相遇, 也不過一年兩次罢了.

也不過比牛郎織女多一次罢了.

我們頗像秋天的曼珠沙華呢, 不是嗎?

just now was having some chit chatting with jeffery and lydia,

quite enjoyable, we talked bout our memories in secondary school.

yes, the time, our 盛夏光年,

and this song appear again, in my headphone now.

 

那些年的夏天, 我做過了甚麼呢?

 

初中, 進過訓導處的那一年嗎?

還是默默暗戀同班同學三年的那段日子?

擔心自己偏差值能否讀理科的無數夜晚?

常常和朋友玩Play Station到夜深的週末?

 

高中, 苦苦暗戀又不敢說出口的歲月?

第一次嘗試戀愛滋味的那個深秋?

半夜駕著車子徘徊在仰慕者的大門口?

還是, 懷疑自己能力和前途的高中統考?

 

跟著感覺走吧, "follow your own feeling",

曉蓉昨晚是這樣說著.

對, 趁著現在還是我們的盛夏光年,

還有那麼一點青春的時候,

不是該好好享受揮霍的滋味嗎 ?

 

盛夏光年, 就是這麼一個難撐和作不了自己的年代,

不斷犯錯, 不斷跌撞的歲月.

跟著感覺走吧, 證明自己活過在這世界上的憑證.

我驕傲的破壞 我痛恨的平凡 才想起那些是我最愛

讓盛夏去貪玩 把殘酷的未來 狂放到光年外 而現在

　　

放棄規則 放縱去愛 放肆自己 放空未來
我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎

　　

讓定律更簡單 讓秩序更混亂 這樣的青春我才喜歡
讓盛夏去貪玩 把殘酷的未來 狂放到光年外 而現在

　　

放棄規則 放縱去愛 放肆自己 放空未來
我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎

　　

我要 我瘋 我要 我愛 就是 我要 我瘋 我要 我愛 現在
一萬首的mp3 一萬次瘋狂的愛 滅不了一個渺小的孤單

　　

我要 我瘋 我要 我愛 就是 我要 我瘋 我要 我愛 現在
盛夏的一場狂歡 來到了光年之外 長大難道是人必經的潰爛

　　

放棄規則 放縱去愛 放肆自己 放空未來
我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎

 

 

slept for almost 12 hours,

havent break my very own record,

for sleeping around 21 hours,

but please, it's school days!

 

外面的太陽, 強烈的令人透不過氣.

窗外有藍天, 真的應驗了這句話.

但是, 我怎麼還是感覺不到,

那些充滿希望的feeling呢?

 

也忘記了, 是多少天之前開始萌生的感覺,

很累了嗎? 還是想放棄的感覺.

外表上看起來還是大吵大鬧的我,

其實心情已經掉到谷底了吧. 我還是太過逞強了.

這幾天都故意讓自己玩的很瘋,

不是大喊大叫, 吃飯吃個夠, 就是睡覺睡個飽. 唉~

 

還記得那天, 已經半夜了,

還一個人跑到以前住的student house.

因為我知道那間屋子裡的人,

就好像不用睡覺般, 永遠都是充滿生氣的,

過去那, 至少我不用那麼悶, 一個人胡思亂想吧.

 

一個人孤軍作戰, 已經不知第幾天了,

我還是要這樣嗎? 繼續我的堅持嗎? 還是放棄呢?

我想我還需要好好靜下心來去思考思考吧.

nothing much to do,

im not happy,

so finding something happy to do.

im just here to share with everyone,

i love GIBSON! hahaHAHAhahaHAHA

changed my guitar's strings!

just got home from college,

i collected my results of 1st year from courseleader.

no comment for my results,

just the same conclusion,

i can do better only if i work harder,

u noticed the word - only if?

 

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Engineer In Society(EIS) - 65

Programming and Software Engineeering(PSE) - 79

Semicondunctor and Engineering Materials(SEM) - 30 (have to resit)

Field Theory and ElectroTechnology(FTET) - 60

Mathematics 1 - 67

Circuits Fundamentals(CF) - 65

Design and Professional Studies(DPS) - 72

Digital Microelectronics(DM) - 67

 

Average Mark - 65.3

Course Standing - 5th

 

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when the courseleader meet me,

he gave me a comment,

"quite disappointed with one of your subject"

yea, the subject, SEM, which the module leader is him as well.

 

i gave a lousy excuse,

saying im sick that day.

although im really sick that day,

i don't really think i tried hard enough.

that's the point, im lazy.

 

Year 2 just started this week.

have a glance on the modules, really tough,

and some more the course now,

having students of around 80 - 100,

there is no more chances and luck to get 5th place.

what can i do?