不管良心, 抑或是狼心, 而結果終究是狗肺.

 

tired tired tired...you know wat im refering to...

everything will be passed...yes...soon...few more days...

 

喔, 突然間想聽一首歌, <倔強>.

五月天萬歲, 阿信你的歌聲,

讓我倔強地面對一切! 萬歲!!!

I really stressed,

for the new house moving, assignments, money, human relationship... ...

and...my health...

 

i wonder since when it's started.

i often dream of myself, my leg, it's so painful till i can't even walk a single step.

and when this morning i woke up, my right leg ankle swellen,

it's hurt. i can't recall knocking on anything, it's just hurt.

some more, i sicked for one month plus.

 

followed by the problems,

im so frustrated, changing my nick in msn.

suk teng saw it ans approached me,

told her wat happened,

she cheer me up and tell me it's alright.

 

she even forward sms to many of my secondary friends, with the content

"take care of your friend, he seems to worry bout his health, try give him supports".

my name not mentioned in the sms,

but everyone do know tat's me.

very touch, thanks. i owe u people, for giving me supports.

 

mum called me just now,

tell her everything, how i feel bout the problems,

felt wanna cry, i just "tahan", i dunwan to cry,

i dunwan to let anyone say tat im so weak.

 

chatted with bangla, wei yang, sze yein, and so on... ...

 

and also thanks for the person who support me..cheer me up..willing to listen everything...

u know who u r..yes..miss p..thanks..

promised...i won't cry.

i have nothing much to say,

just feel quite guilty created a space and abandonned it.

 

im not really feeling well,

both physically and mentally.

im not happy.

don'y ask me why,

i can't answer myself as well.

 

人生在世 , 就真的需要不斷地接受逆擊嗎?

我不禁沉默了.

 

suddenly, observed one scene in front of me,

giving me inspiration,

let's try writing it out.

 

死角, 我站在光線照射不到的死角.

那些實現不了的夢想,

那些欲言又止的話語,

都安靜地躺在這裡 .

 

something like this,

what's it means?

i dunno, don't feel like

using my brain to figure it out.

maybe when i got 思考能力 1st.

im tired, sleep now, nightz.

 

1.38am. I think i finished it, the C++ assignment report, 17 pages.
we had a demo today in the ECAD lab, im the first one to start the demo.
Mr. Pu(PSE Lecturer) really expect much from us.
When he first see my program,
he terus say, "Why the layout so lousy one?"
Boss,you taught us so little thing, you expect to see brilliant work ah!!??

 

I'd show some photo during the "long and winding road" doing the torturing assignment.

 

i've been sick about 1 month over. I still coughing.
Last night even pity, running nose some more.
I'd made up my mind, really gonna eat medicine according to time,
if still don't recover, no choice but to make appointment with doctor.

 

feel so happy finishing the tasks,
issued since..since...since..2 or 3 months ago.
But, too bad, another assignment which due date on next friday,
the Design n Profressional Studies (DPS). shit.
really balnk in my mind, totally blur with the tiltle.

 

Oooops! suddenly think of the CF tutorial to hand in tomorrow,
i better go now and finish it, then rest early.
sick really troublesome!

I also dunno why..dunno what happened..

dunno why im so keen to watch world cup just now..

Japan V Australia. Im super duper Japan-Korea Fans,

maybe i support asian, who know~

 

Ended up, I VERY DULAN (pissed-off),

you see my pictures below, you can get wat i meant.

Australia scored 3 goals consecutively in the last 10 minutes.

i even tell Gonx, "If they can score 1 more goal, i bang to the wall!!",

during Aust 2 v 1. WHO KNOWS..they really scored.

i bang to the wall just now, i really got nothing to say, speechless!

 

Anyway, it's really a nice experience watching worldcup with room mate,

we bought some junk foods and enjoyed the match,

althought get pissed off.

 

Ok, now left one more hope, Korea!!

GO GO GO, i always support Asians!!!

World Cup Started, the 4 years organised once event, started.

Im not a football freak, but i still sitting in front of the TV,

for almost twenty minutes for the first match. (so called try to support this big event)

Germany Vs Costa Rica with the final result 4 v 2,

i think there should be many people lose their bets huh~

 

This morning woke up by the student house warden,

he's like keep on banging on the door,

why can't that mutha f***er be more gentle,

waking me up.

 

"It's room inspection." Gonx(my room mate) said.

what? room check? time like this?

Argh~alright. I also can't recall what the warden said,

something like clean up the room, and he will bring parents

come to visit the student house.

The worst is, i get know someone gonna move in to our room,

gosh, i already hardly have privacy for sharing room with only one person,

there's no way i can accept one more person, please.

 

But luckily, we had figured out the solutions,

me and Gonx will move out,

to another house, which not under KBU.

i will pay RM260 for a room excluded

the electricity and water supply payment,

but i will stay in the room alone.

Although i know Gonx would like to share a room with me,

i still rejected him, as i really need privacy and being alone.

I can feel it, he's not really happy, but no choice.

Suddenly, im very looking forward to move out.

 

I CAN REGAIN MY PRIVACY SO SOON! YES!!!

 

I'm so broke right now,

left over 18 bucks inside my wallet,

i wonder when my parents gonna send me money.

 

I went to Segambut to eat Seafood Noodle,

with my coursemates yesterday during the 2 hours lunch break.

Gosh, the bowl of noodle costed me RM14,

some more added with taxes and the drinks,

altogether RM16++,

HOW CAN THIS BE!!!

 

I can't see any special for the noodle,

just added with some "lala"s, prawns, bean curd,

and also just few thumbail-sized fillets.

The noodles, sigh,

lagi i finish it in 3 to 4 bites.

I'm speechless.

 

3.47am, housemates just went supper,

im so broke, that i only can stay starving here.

Nvm, i can keep fit as well!!

Just try to blog here,

and also write something in my xanga,

to keep my concentration away from food.

pity charles.

Im not meant to be racist,

but why are you forcing me to do so?

 

The story goes like this,

i will name him...hmmmm, ok, let's name him X.

I was sitting alone in front of my own station in Analog Lab today,

then X came in, "Oh, you're alone? Do you think we can be groupmate to do this experiment?"

What can i say "No"? i'm not so cruel like wat you think! I answered "Yes".

 

X is a dumb, he never accept my argument although mine is correct.

Nevertheless, he was forcing me to follow his answer.

Oh God, it's Thevenin and Norton equivalent circuit,

could be difficult for me,

i'd being so nice, copy the answers from next station and pass to him,

he dunwan to accept it and lead me to "Holland",

forcing me to write down the wrong answer,

isn't X a dumb!!!?? F***

 

This is not the first time i accept these kind of people as groupmate.

The last time even more "wonderful",

a dumb, let's name him Y,

caused a small explosion in the lab,

the capacitor burst.

This dumb connected the diode in the opposite terminal,

OH PLEASE, are you a kindergarden student?

don't even know how to differentiate "+" and "-" ?

And, the most most most most important is --

THEY ARE MY GROUPMATE!!!

 

ARGH...forget it, i will never be so "kind" and accept people like X and Y as groupmate again!!!

 

It's 12.15am now,

still not yet take my shower,

some more later gonna finish the Circuit Fundamental tutorials,

why im so lazy?

 

My computer can't type chinese anymore,

dunno what's wrong with "him",

gonna reformat again..sigh..

 

I wanna back up all my files and folders to my room mate's computer,

but the next door guy gonna use the line,

i forced to delayed my reformation,

can't type chinese. *sob*

 

I'd got inspirations to write something,

for sure in chinese,

boss, i can never write those so called "meaningful" thing in English, alright?

You can feel it, my English lousy by reading thru my blog, isn't it?

 

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME TODAY!!

why seems everything against me??!!

i wonder will i die 'mati lemas" later i take shower huh!!

08th june 06, it's sin bday.

 

Maybe you may wanna ask, "who the hell sin is?"

Sin considered my best friend also..we love to share our secret to each other.

Hmmm, can be happy and cry easily, quite weird huh?

Just phoned her and wished her happy bday.

She said coming to find me during her sem break in july,

quite looking foward to it.

 

Oh ya, C++ demo and report postponted to next thursday,

cause tommorow we will have another Circuit Fundamental lab,

so we will have no time for the demo section. Hooray!

can "curi tulang" for another week.

 

I bought the Engineering Maths text book,

i wonder i made the correct decision,

for me, its same either i own a text book or not.

the book quite expensive, and the most important thing is --

IT IS NOT EDIBLE!!! sigh...

 

Hmmm, it started to rain outside, AGAIN.

i wonder how's the weather overthere.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

 

it's 2.09am, im tired now, pissed off by the C++ assignments,

thinking when i can quit all these things.

 

I wanted to go for a vacation so badly right now.

I wanted to be back-packers carrying a camera visiting here and there.

I wanted to eat pork right now, i miss the feeling eating pork.

I wanted to see my mum now, she looked funny solving the sudoku puzzle.

I wanted to play with my dirty dog now, he must be bored without me making fun of him all the time.

I wanted to... ...sigh...

 

wonder what she's doing now...it's 2+am, she must be sleeping.

argh...i miss the "train" to meet her up in her dream.

so tonight i cannot see her as well, just like wat used to happen to me everynight.

 

Me and my room mate, being silence,

both of us listening to Peterpan <2DSD>,

he's looking to the ceiling, 孤零零望ceiling,

im being a dumb writing blog.

 

tomolo gonna wake up early at around 830am+,

having consequently circuit fundamental(CF) and digital microelectronics(DM),

then afternoon lecture being stupid Maths.

Another weekend passed, why my weekend passed so fast and easily recently.

 

Starred at the calendar just now,

there will be no public holiday only until national day, yes, 31st of august.

know what, my sem break will start ont 1st of september,

this mean, i will have no single holiday until my sem end,

will be tough huh? shit. sigh.

 

bah, sleep now, see ya. Good night my dream girl, hope to meet u up.

04th June 2006.

 

I deleted the old blog entries so called "my feeling" and "meaningful" articles from me.

Sometimes its true, 把文章寫得翩翩起舞 , 太過注重文采 , 未必是件好事 .

So, i deleted it, as i already have another blog which store those articles,

why bother having two same thing huh?

 

 

Okie dokie, just follow my plan, having this blog storing my daily life 點滴,

but i can feel it already, it won't be updated periodically, as im lazy person, lol.

 

A strange feeling start to grown in my heart since just now.

Know what, it's because of the C++ assignment and demo which due date is next thursday,

im totally blank in my mind, some more watching all my coursemates being so concentrate in it,

i started to feel worried. bah, no choice, im lazy since the day i bornt wat!

 

Heard from ChingLian(my coursemate), my C++ phase test get 70+,

honestly, im not really satisfy with the marks although it's considered high.

i can do better, this is wat i told myself, since, this is the only subject i can score better

compared to the other modules. But, sigh...