沒了妳的這個城市. 我的車窗外只剩下了單一色彩.

瞬間, 城市從原本已經憂鬱的藍色變成了沒有感情的灰色.

那天回家的晚上, 我偶爾拗下了鏡子, 發現空氣更冷了.

原來, 空氣也因為妳的突然離去感覺到了哀傷.

 

攝氏二十三度的房間裡, 原本微濕的唇漸漸乾透.

然而它總是不爭氣地懷念著妳的唇輕輕印上, 滋潤著我.

 

有時候, 我會懷疑我到底是喜歡妳的味道, 還是迷戀那洗髮水的味道.

一直到了這個孤獨寂靜的夜晚, 這個問題就更加成為了一個謎.

於是, 我的夢裡又飄蕩著那淡淡的綠茶香味.

 

在哪裡找來一個密封的瓶子. 一個可以收藏珍貴回憶的瓶子.

我要把那一晚的空氣, 味道, 眼神, 感覺和妳溫暖的體溫通通都密封起來.

我會赫然發現, 我這輩子的運氣確實不夠用.

 

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一個純粹的故事.

一個男生失去至愛的故事.

一個偶然閃過腦海的故事.

 

charles

凌晨 1.22AM 哥打京那峇魯

It's been a long time, one week time actually, since I last posted my previous entry.

So? What am I up to recently? Honestly, Nothing I had done so far, except for waiting, waiting and waiting.

Alright, let's some photos do the talking.

 

 

Lamp post is "waiting" for the dawn? Miserable dog is "waiting" for dinner? yea, and "waiting" for traffic light.

 

"Waiting", such an uneasy period of my life.

你試過喝加鹽的咖啡了嗎? 我試過了, 在這季秋天裡.

味道並沒有我想像的難喝.

我們往往把日常的一些生活習慣當作必然.

我們真的忽略了身邊的許許多多了嗎?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

被刪掉的重要文件, 可以從資源回收桶還原過來.

耗資千萬的工程, 一旦變成違章建築, 可以拆掉從新蓋過.

日漸失寵的妃子, 還是可以撒嬌爭寵, 以逃離打入冷宮的噩運.

斷了弦的吉他, 可以從新裝弦調弦, 還是可以表演彈奏.

 

但是我想了很久, 終究還是沒有結果.

為甚麼一個名字進入了我的心房以後, 就是沒有辦法讓她從我的腦海裡揮去呢?

This gonna be a long entry, with tonnes of photos to be uploaded.

Yes, last week concluded my convocation, press conference and so-on.

So, let me begin with my trip to KL for the convocation. Stay tuned.

 

5th September 2008 Friday

Ride on the Air Asia AK5105 flight, and arrived in LCC-T around 1500Hr.

As to save up money, and making this convo trip to KL a low cost and economic one,

I chose to take the Sky Bus from the terminal to KL Sentral, and take Putra LRT to travel to Taman Bahagia.

Thanks to Chin Pang, who willing to fetch me from the station to Bandar Utama.

 

Darn, i really miss Bandar Utama, and I'm here again. So happy!

most of the things are just still the same, the spoilt toilet, the yellowish sink,

even the smell in my room, my bed and pillow, etc.

 

For the dinner, we able to gather altogether 17 people,

to have our meal in Vietnam Kitchen in 1 Utama.

Haha, as claimed by my sis, 1 Utama the second home of mine.

Photos of the day.

 

 

6th September 2008 Saturday

Woke up early in the morning, that's 8am. Yes, this considered early for me,

as I normally wake up around 10am - 11am daily during my holiday.

Get up so early, just to attend a press conference organized by the college.

This is some sort of tea gathering for the 1st class honors students meeting the press,

and luckily I'm one of them, so I am attending it.

 

The students are given a form to be filled in, and the form questioned,

 

Guess what I answered? OK, maybe this gonna be controversy or a lil' sentimental. Mr. Tham came in mind at that moment.

 

 

Different people might have different thought. Many of the students don't really see eye-to-eye with me.

But what can I say is just, you will start to appreciate it when you are about to leave the college, or meeting the right people in the college. I enjoyed the college life, as I met nice lecturers and wonderful friends.

 

 

 

Photo L >> The four of us, including Lai Kok Heng, Bing Hui and Ching Lian, arrived early on that day to the press.

 

Photo M >> During the press, Kelvin (white shirt) seems a bit too serious and concentrated in listen to the speech.

 

Photo R >> The fellow 1st class honors coursemates in the elevator. Where's Ji Ming and me!!??

 

7th September 2008 Sunday

Woke up early again around 9am. Today gonna be my big day! making up, setting up my hair, arrived at the ball room at 10am.

This year convo was organized in One World hotel. One World!! yea, the 5 star hotel.

Rumors tell that, this is the most successful event so far in KBU, no comment.

 

Registered myself to the booth, filling in some sort of alumni form, and getting my gown.

The convo will start sharp at 1130am, we're left some times to have some snaps before that.

People are busy-ing taking pictures with family, or having the professional photo taking offered by the hotel,

which actually charge from the range of RM140- RM190 per photo.

 

 

Photo L >> Main room of the function, see the Nottingham Trent University banner?! Haha.

 

Photo R >> Feeling touch that sis get me this white roses. She'd been searching through whole 1 Utama just to get me this. Thanks.

 

 

Photo L >> Toh Bing Hui, Top 1 of the course, student of the year BEngEEE. He always asking "How?" "How?" and "How?". My Final Year Project (FYP) group member and group leader. This idiot said he will be working in Singapore soon, which means I gonna listen to the "How?" "How?" "How?" again if we really working together there. i wonder that's a good or a bad news.

 

Photo M >> Aaron nor~~! Yea, Aaron, Sabahan, someone who damn blur and damn slow response. Please dun try him! he manage to answer you "harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr?" after you've wasting half an hour explaining something to him. He loves girls, but I wonder if girls love him.

 

Photo R >> Brandon, cousin of Aaron, Sabahan as well. He considered the best listener of mine, in the 3 years time. He normally using his lung to talk, but not mouth, good in telling jokes, with gestures and patterns. We always gossip and hang out nearby in the playground area during year 1 and year 2 period. Year 3? He busy with some other people liao lur~! hehehehe.

 

 

Photo L >> Jiaho. He joined us during the end of year 2, taking refer paper of Mathematics 2A. really come to know him during year 3. We shared an inconvenient secret huh? hahaha.

 

Photo M >> Farn Ruey a.k.a FR. Legend of KBU, but legend as in? so far he's carrying the title of KBU Top 3 Legend. He's a damn pervert staying next door of me, always occupying the Internet access to download *A-hem*. He claimed himself a Japanese and using Japanese version Window XP. Yes, in short, idiot.

 

Photo R >> Lim Ching Yeok, we normally call him Lim. Nice guy, from Sandakan Sabah, but currently moved to Perak. He knows lot of stuffs and having his own Principe in working out stuffs.

 

Photo L >> Nigel. Chairperson of Student Service Department a.k.a student council. Active guy. Rumors said he's good in Design. I'm not quite sure as i never have a chance to work with him in any assignments.

 

Photo M >> Kean Hon a.k.a Dai Fei. I wonder where and when he get this name. He's top 2 student in our course. Easy-going guy and damn clever guy, jelez~. A great racer. No. no no no, a great driver, who can send you to destination always earlier then promised time I bet.

 

Photo R >> Jeffery, old housemates, from Sabah, haha, lazy bug or dirty bug? never mind. Thanks to him, making so much fun with his special personalities, we do enjoy that. Graduate of Software Engineering, guiding me so much in FYP for the C++ and VB. Thanks.

 

 

 

Photo L >> Chin Pang. The 1st guy I co-operate with in year 1. I still remember the assignment title was "the operations of Nand-Gate". His care-free style made me a bit nervous sometimes, but everything just turning out fine in the end. Thanks for guiding me thru year 1, as a freshie in Electronics and Electrical.

 

Photo M >> Mum and Sis. Nothing much can be told. Thanks for attending my convo.

 

Photo R >> Sim. What is the best word to describe? pervert? hmmmmmmmmm? he's more than that. Steady type people? He's more than that as well. He owned a copyright of a phrase, which later developed to be our motto of all time. "sendiri sendiri lah!" He always said this phrase when he is left behind for some activities or whatsoever. Sim, I'm unemployed now, you sendiri sendiri work lah!

 

 

Photo L >> Keat. Sabahan, Sandakan peopel as well. Driving White Atos. He seems to be a silent guy, but his words are somehow fun also sometimes. Lai Kok Heng (gosh, I din took picture with him) always say he loves to "put airplane". Ha.

 

Photo M >> Me, Chin Pang, Sok Yee, Brandon and Lai Chuin Chang.

 

Photo R >> Lai Chuin Chang. The first guy whom I talk to in KBU. He's definitely a racer, yes racer but not driver. He's rich and always bring me along to waste money! My tuition student, which I helped him to cheat in refer exam, guilty me~ really get to know him and become good buddy during end of year 2 and the whole year 3 period. He's awesome in some way. Haha.

 

 

Photo L >> Last few pieces of photos before the ceremony started.

 

Photo M >> Backdrops of the ceremony.

 

Photo R >> Vice Chancellor of the University, Professor Neil Gorman is delivering speech.

 

 

 

Photo L >> Bing Hui the top student is giving his speech. Hey, not a bad one Bing Hui!

 

Photo M >> My Certification. Thanks NTU, Thanks KBU.

 

Photo R >> Professor Neil Gorman and Charles~

 

 

Photo L >> Teng Hoong a.k.a playboy. He know nothing probably but xxx. Hahaha, just kidding. This fellah is just damn funny with his gestures when talking craps. Your Sex topic in Year 1 presentation is still fresh on my mind.

 

Photo M >> Kang Jie. A nice guy, loves photography as well. Really get to know him only this March if not mistaken, in a trip to Perak. He is cute with his big eyes. Cheers.

 

Photo R >> Kian Hong a.k.a Bobo. I love calling him Bobo. He's cute and funny. Looked like Kungfu Panda. Always willing to fetch me with his Batman Motorcycle. He's a generous guy, love spending sometimes. A good staff of Starbucks Bandar Utama. haha.

 

 

Photo L >> Ching Lian. Some people called him Cibai Nian. Who? definitely not me. Voted Best Male in our course. Polite, Kind, generous, and all sort of good adjectives to describe this fellah. FYP groupmate of mine. Providing me good ideas in doing my stuffs. Always fetching me home in his Proton Waja WJF 6998 after project stuffs everyday during year 3. Thanks man.

 

Photo M >> Sok Yee. She's the one, who I mentioned earlier. Brandon abandoned me because of her. Haha. They get together the end of year 2. She plays guitar also, classical one. She's polite, kind and helpful. She always thinks for others first before herself. She's good in doing CAD stuff I bet, he can do nice excel and Microsoft Project.

 

Photo R >> Hakimi. Malay. He can sings Chinese songs, even Jay Chou he also "pandai nyanyi". speechless. Loves clubbing and dancing so much. Active guy, being too active in student council work and "kena shoot" by lecturers during year 1 and year 2.

 

 

Photo L >> I'm giving speech.

 

Photo M >> Jiunnie. Stay next door to me, a tall guy. Yea "Taaaaaaaaall". Holy guy who always travel from Bandar Utama to Wangsamaju to attend church every week. He can play fingerstyle guitar well. Loves singing much, and I could listen to his singing which are very happily and out of tune normally next door. haha. Btw, rumors said he do has a girl friend in the course as well.

 

Photo R >> Pei Shan. The fortune teller. She can use poker to help you seeking for your fortune oh! Top 3 student of our course. If you're looking for word to describe her, that's probably "Hardworking". She will always thinks for her family 1st I bet, definitely gonna be a good mummy and good wife in the future. Haha.

 

 

Photo L >> Weeli, another FYP groupmate of mine. One of the racer as well, drive fast but steadily. He raised a Golden Retriever which is super cute. Always bully Yong Ching Lian and calling him *A-hem*, XX- Nian. (plz refer to previous section for hints) Rare easy-going KL guys which also included Ching Lian.

 

Photo M >> Kelvin, "Dota-Kaki". He's so into gaming, yet Top 4 student of the course. He's also into photography recently. really get to know him well only during nearly the end of of year 3. A nice guy to hang out with. He knows a lot of girls oh! Don't hesitate to get girls phone number from him.

 

Photo R >> Chin Chen, Mt. Kinabalu kaki of mine. KL guys, good-tempered guy, always fetching the Bandar Utama gang to yum-cha all the while. His twin brother exactly the same face with him, making Bobo unable to differentiate and causing jokes last time.

 

 

Photo L >> Ang Wen Huai a.k.a ALONG. Along, not Abang Sulung, the elder brother. Along, as in "Big Ear Hole", those loan sharks. He's actually not a loan shark, but he do looked like one of them. He's actually a soft and gentle guy when you really get to know him.

 

Photo M >> Say Yean. Part time mobile phone repair man and dealer maybe. Really get to know him during project period, as we are under the same supervisor, Ms. Chan. A funny guy to hang out with also.

 

Photo R >> Sis, she's not from our course, but she asked me to snap her. =.=

 

 

Photo L >> Me.

 

Photo M >> Sis.

 

Photo R >> The most wonderful lady, my mum.

 

 

Photo L >> Dinesh. Indian. Rich and so into golf. He's hardworking and always finish those writing assignment the same day they are distributed. swt.

 

Photo M >> FYP group member with title, Real Time Motor Control Using MATLAB. missing the old days, stressful and hectic caused by Bing Hui. Hahahahahahahaha!

 

Photo R >> Cindy. who is this leng lui? Bobo's gf. Yes the world is unfair. Hahaha. JK. She was there to attend Bobo's Convo.

 

 

Photo L >> Steven. Legendary guy who can walk home from Sunway Pyramid thru Lebuhraya Damansara Puchong (LDP). Know where he stay? He stay near Mutiara Damansara, The Curve. swt. Lai Kok Heng all time best friend.

 

Photo M >> Desmond. Initially I thought this guy was silent guy, yes he's not talkative and noisy, but just totally different from what I thought. He's funny and clever. Guitar Hero as well.

 

Photo R >> In front of the Ruby Ball Room.

 

8th September 2008 Monday

Back to One World Hotel to collect the photo taken yesterday during the certificates presentation ceremony.

Me, Ching Lian and Weeli, are then back to KBU again to have our last visit, and collect our transcript.

We were so surprise that we can get newspaper which released in the previous days in the library. These are what we get.

 

 

 

Photo L >> Newspaper page from The Star Paper.

 

Photo M >> To Our 2008 Graduates, CONGRATULATIONS, we salute your achievements.

 

Photo R >> 1st class honors, please find my name.

 

9th September 2008 Tuesday

We are boarding Air Asia flight AK5120 back to Kota Kinabalu today.

Gotta back to my very own life, and everybody else are working their own life already. I will miss you KL, KBU and everyone.

 

 

Photo L >> The Sudoku lady, mum, working so hard all day long, solving Sudoku. Hahaha.

 

Photo R >> With broccoli headed mum, in the boarding hall. We shared the same song, her all time favorite, Bee Gees.

 

 

Thanks you, making my three years life over there, a great and fruitful one. You know who you are.

九月了, 九九年有一首歌的歌詞是這麼唱的, 一首很動聽的歌曲.

"九月的風在吹 哪會寒到心肝底 希望變無望 決定我的一世人"

距離開始工作的日子又更靠近了.

 

我說呀, 天下烏鴉一般黑, 嗯, 不不不,

該說天下父母一個樣. 甚麼樣?

媽剛才說, 如果能夠在這裡找到一份工作也不賴,

可以省下租金, 可以吃家裡的飯, 可以... ...

 

其實對我來說, 能留在這裡, 有好有壞,

先撇開能不能夠在外地找到工作.

說真的, 我應該怎麼辦? 心裡 50-50的,

彷彿還沒有搞清楚自己想要些甚麼.

 

先收拾好心情, 完成手頭上的工作吧.

反正還有兩個星期的時間.